That is my cry, my prayer, my heart. That God would come, stir me up and move me with such intensity that going back to who I am/was would never be a possibility.
What if Jesus told you to "sell all you have, give to the poor and come, follow me" would you do it? Could you do it? I'm not so sure I could, which aches me to no end. But I am sure that God is calling Brett and I right now, maybe it's something here, maybe it's something in another country. Maybe it's "down sizing" and giving more to the poor. But the reality is, money is NOT the answer - Jesus is. Love is.
Right now Brett and I are searching, seeking, looking for ways to serve and ways that we can bring our children with us. The reality is...we have 4 kids. Thats who we are, thats what God has give us and we are a family unit. Will that mean putting our kids in more risky situations for the sake of his kingdom...maybe? But I would rather be in the protection of God's will rather than thinking I'm in God's will and really not be.
So Lord, you know the plans you have for us. Move us, shake us, allow us to be open to your calling. Your provision over our family has always been and will always continue to be the reason we trust that your plans are better than our own.
Lord I beg you to continue to break our hearts for what breaks yours....