Saturday, October 22, 2011

It's amazing to me....

That I can sleep for 11 hours (yes I got up at least 5 times to pee, but I went right back to sleep) and then go to a 4 year olds birthday party and feel like I've been hit by a bus.  I was hoping to be able to go to church tonight and watch my hubby lead worship for Saturday Night Church but I don't think I do it.  I'm starting to get really frustrated with my body....not only do I feel like my skin and belly are maxed out but I feel like I only have energy for about one activity a day or else I'm paying for it for a week.  I'm having a hard time not focusing my on my pain and I think I've cried more time this past week then I have the whole pregnancy.  I hate that I can't just enjoy my last few weeks and be able to finish up the few last minute things that need to get done before the twins get here, but honestly...I'm tapped out.  I don't care what anyone says - there is NOTHING like being pregnant with two babies (unless you are pregnant with 3+ haha).  I don't think anyone can prepare you for how you will feel.  Yes I want these babies to be safe and be inside of me until 37 weeks but the thought of 5 more weeks truly brings tears to my eyes.

But I have to be strong and know that I can do this and I know how HUGE of a blessing these twins are to my family - but Lord, I need you right now.  Please help me finish strong and give my body the strength it needs to keep these babies growing.  I trust that you have my best interest at heart and that through you I can make it 5 more weeks.

And for your viewing is the belly in all its glory haha.  Still no stretch marks but ummm I'm sure those will be a nice surprise here in the next few weeks but a girl can hope can't she?


1 comment:

Cathy said...

Hang in there L! I'm praying for you!!! xxoo